little. yellow. different. A weblog by Ernie Hsiung

second verse, same as the first

For the past three or four months, I kinda walked away from this blog. There was a lot of pressure - mostly on my own accord - to try to be a comedian on this website, and a ton of valid reasons why I shouldn’t post here at all: family, my job working as an engineer, and oh shit, a product blogger, on a social networking site. (It was recently labelled as a “failure” by the New York Times, by the way, but that’s another story altogether.)

I would feel guilty not updating my personal blog, then I would try to write something, then my blood pressure would spike up on what I wouldn’t be allowed to say and feel that I’m dissapointing everyone and then just avoid writing again.
So I gutted it. I gutted the whole website. Oh, the archives are still around here somewhere - but I’m keeping in a safe place for now, until I figure out what the hell to do with it.

I turn 30 in a month or so, and for better or for worse, I’m a very different person now than when I started littleyellowdifferent.com, over six years ago. A little more realistic, a little darker, a little less of me desperately trying to crack jokes because I’m feeling insecure. (Oh, no. This time, I’ll just say it. And let it be known, I’m still a catty bitch. But, honestly, it’s not like I found Jesus or anything.)

I’m considering this redesign an experiment; let’s see if it’s possible for me to casually blog again, we’ll see what happens.

I hope you blog again.

Thirty already my life! Happy coming up Birthday. I spent thirty hiding under a blanket for two days. So I’d say ‘ a little darker’ is normal.
I wish you the kind of party where they call the police! The good news is - life is just as much fun at 60.
The new blog layout looks good and I agree with you about the jokes.
Best Magic
M

Oh Ernie. I *totally* know what you mean.

Totally.

Whatever form and direction the blog takes, I hope you enjoy doing it. I can’t speak for anyone else, but there’s absolutely no pressure from me for you to be anything but yourself, be that funny, dark, bitchy, or anything in between. ♥

I think ur honesty is exactly why blogging is so important. If the world is ever going to be better, its going to be from authentic feelings and thoughts, openly expressed. You know there will be costs. There always is to honesty. But there will be the satisfaction ofknowing that you spoke your mind.

I say you are fighting the good fight. “On the side of the angels” like people said back in the day.

I started reading here a few years ago and I have never posted before. I stopped here and come back just because you’re you. Just as catty and dark as I am. I don’t need humor, I just read it and feel like someone else out there gets annoyed like I do and you know what, they are an okay person, so I must be too. Does that make any sense? I get what you mean, I think if I had a blog, I’d have a hard time being “on”. I hope you find joy in it again. And, if not, I hope you find joy somewhere else. Mere

Welcome back, Ernie. I feel like you’re a friend I lost touch with. You were missed.

only do it as long as you like doing it

Please please do bring back the archives, especially the post on ECHS graduation. I went through it a few years before you did and it was EXACTLY like you said. I was so excited when I found that, I hauled my husband over to the computer and yelled “See! I told you I went to school in the ghetto! Vindicated!” I know that story is a small part of what you do, and I enjoy it all. Welcome back, such as it is.

Now that you’re a darker Ernie, you’ll have to get a black background. And some gothic fonts. Maybe an image of a floating skull too. That would be hot.

Thanks for sharing with us as long as you could! I’m glad I got to read the whole thing before it went down.

“I turn 30 in a month or so, and for better or for worse, I’m a very different person now than when I started littleyellowdifferent.com, over six years ago. A little more realistic, a little darker…”

So now you’re verging on orange?

Eric in Seattle
A Whiter Shade of Pale

It really is good to see you back.

I’m glad you’re back Ernie. I, and so many people in this part of the world (Asia) miss you. Yes, we do!

The new site looks fab, Ernie. I do not doubt your commitment to Sparkle Motion.

I’m glad to read you in any capacity, Ernie. Really. Do it like it you want to do it.

You’re a talented writer. Not everyone is able to so eloquently convey their feelings and make the daily grind seem interesting. Whether or not you stop blogging altogether, I hope you don’t stop writing. You’re good at it.

Alright! Is this the new 2.0 version? Where are the tags? Seriously, just write whatever the hell you want, it’s supposed to be for you.

Having you back makes me happy. I hope this new approach makes you happy too.

FIRST POST!!!!!!!

Oh wait.

Ernie, I’m glad you’re giving it a try again. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with a blogger growing up and their blog growing with them.

Thank goodness you’re back, Ernie. Your writing is some of the web’s best, period, no matter what your mood-slash-headspace. The fact that you’re one of the web’s hottest guys - f’reals! - is gravy.

so glad to see you back!!

I’m glad to be able to read whatever you care to share. Of course, with our ongoing torrid affair, it’s not like I don’t see a lot of you already!

Wow! I was stuck to reading the feeds to the 160º blog *without going in for the videos* just to read your words, honey!

Glad I can now skip on that pathetic habit

The internet is creepy, but I’ll add my creepy comment anyway:

I missed you, Ernie!!

Ern-

Glad you’re ready to join us oldtimers whose warranty has already run out. (Insert catty joke about how Asian models get better mileage than domestics.)

I wish you the best in this period of introspection. I found that my life course shifted after 30 in a very positive way.

-Ed

Damn, dude, most people take a hiatus and tear down their site, then disappear for a couple months before they redesign and relaunch. I turn my back for, what, a day and you’re back with a vengeance. And I’m glad to see it.

(Maybe as someone who’s mostly a lurker, I’m not allowed to call you “dude” yet. But I did anyway.)

Hey, Ernie.. glad to see you’re back! I’m a huge fan and have been for a while, and I definitely miss your humor and writing when you’re not able to post frequently (I mean that with no pressure whatsoever, I totally know what you mean about having to put distance between yourself and your blog).

Anyway, even though we haven’t met, I feel in an odd sort of way that I identify with you.. I think maybe that’s why I’m drawn back to your blog time and time again. I grew up in S.F., so getting glimpses of the Bay Area through your eyes is a treat.. now, I come to learn that you and I are turning 30 at basically the same time… I vaguely remember that we have the same birthday or something, but it’s been a while since I last chatted with you.

Anyway, sorry to ramble at you, but I wanted you to know there’s a big ole lesbo stuck out on the east coast, living vicariously through you, and we can be in solidarity when we grudgingly leave our 20’s behind.

Welcome, back Ernie! I love the redesign.

Welcome back, big man.

Welcome back Ernie. Now if only Britney Spears can pull off a similar come back with the same amount of heart, edginess and flair, all will be right with the world (Doubtful, but we’ll see).

… And maybe a skirt matching the plaid of the redesign. Mmm…. plaid minis…

ernie, I too hope you continue to blog.

just make the cartoon/rainbow graphic your main header and that’ll be all the proof you need. that is the gayest thing i’ve ever seen. i love it!

It’s great to have you present and active on these pages again. From coming back during five or six years principally for the big laughs that are to be had here, I’ve developped also a loyalty to little.yellow.different through some of the notes that allowed us a hint of your touching and attaching character.

Yours is among the very few blogs for which I’ve had a surviving interest since the early times when I got on the internet and started reading them. And I can honestly say that the internet wouldn’t have been half as hip, cool and engrossing without little.yellow.different in it.

So, welcome back, dude!

PS. Wow, I don’t know what to think of this background pattern.