second verse, same as the first
For the past three or four months, I kinda walked away from this blog. There was a lot of pressure - mostly on my own accord - to try to be a comedian on this website, and a ton of valid reasons why I shouldn’t post here at all: family, my job working as an engineer, and oh shit, a product blogger, on a social networking site. (It was recently labelled as a “failure” by the New York Times, by the way, but that’s another story altogether.)
I would feel guilty not updating my personal blog, then I would try to write something, then my blood pressure would spike up on what I wouldn’t be allowed to say and feel that I’m dissapointing everyone and then just avoid writing again.
So I gutted it. I gutted the whole website. Oh, the archives are still around here somewhere - but I’m keeping in a safe place for now, until I figure out what the hell to do with it.
I turn 30 in a month or so, and for better or for worse, I’m a very different person now than when I started littleyellowdifferent.com, over six years ago. A little more realistic, a little darker, a little less of me desperately trying to crack jokes because I’m feeling insecure. (Oh, no. This time, I’ll just say it. And let it be known, I’m still a catty bitch. But, honestly, it’s not like I found Jesus or anything.)
I’m considering this redesign an experiment; let’s see if it’s possible for me to casually blog again, we’ll see what happens.
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