First... "smarter than I am (a low bar, admittedly)." Noooo. You don't give yourself enough credit. I know, the job hunt can drag down anyone's self-esteem, but don't sell yourself short. You're very smart. (And I realize that may have been self-deprecating humor, in part, but really, give yourself credit.)
As for the rest, I definitely can relate. Through multiple layoffs in my career, I know these feelings. And the last one, where I left working in-house (or, rather, it left me) and decided to muddle through without whatever contract work I could find... the situation really made me feel quite unloved. It's a tough experience, but things do work out.
Also re this: "You know what’s great about online programs with no real accountability?
You can just... stop. No one checks on you.
No one asks why you disappeared.
You’re just quietly failing in your own little corner of the internet while the course modules pile up in your inbox, like digital tumbleweeds."
— i had to stage an intervention with myself, after I bought (at great expense) no fewer than THREE courses on how to write copy, and never got past lesson 2 on any of them. You'd think I'd have learned after the second!!!!
First... "smarter than I am (a low bar, admittedly)." Noooo. You don't give yourself enough credit. I know, the job hunt can drag down anyone's self-esteem, but don't sell yourself short. You're very smart. (And I realize that may have been self-deprecating humor, in part, but really, give yourself credit.)
As for the rest, I definitely can relate. Through multiple layoffs in my career, I know these feelings. And the last one, where I left working in-house (or, rather, it left me) and decided to muddle through without whatever contract work I could find... the situation really made me feel quite unloved. It's a tough experience, but things do work out.
THIS WAS SO RELATABLE.
Also re this: "You know what’s great about online programs with no real accountability?
You can just... stop. No one checks on you.
No one asks why you disappeared.
You’re just quietly failing in your own little corner of the internet while the course modules pile up in your inbox, like digital tumbleweeds."
— i had to stage an intervention with myself, after I bought (at great expense) no fewer than THREE courses on how to write copy, and never got past lesson 2 on any of them. You'd think I'd have learned after the second!!!!
You had me at “I already rejected myself on your behalf”. We can all relate. Thanks for this great read!